11 October 2006 @ 06:02 pm
Thoughts  
[info]persephone_thea Tagged me so here we go:

  • Write a journal entry for this meme with six random facts about yourself.
  • Then pick six people off your friends list and tag them - no tag backs.
  • These rules should be included in your entry

1. I love swing dancing and ballroom dancing and any other dancing.
2. I hate having the sheets tucked in when i go to bed. I have to kick them all over the place to get comfy.
3. I can lie on my stomach and stetch backwards to cover my eyes with my toes (kinda weird and kinda gross huh?)
4. I can make a really funny fish face.
5. I like too many domestic arts like baking, cooking, cross stitch, scrapbooking, ...etc.
6. I dated three guys in a row that all had a December 21 birthday. (creepy) 

Tag you are it (possibly again)

[info]sexahlilthing

[info]buddhadave

[info]miss_amalthea

[info]the_young_muse

[info]teacher_master

(i don't have enough friends *pouts*)

 
whisper | in my ear
 
19 September 2006 @ 11:51 pm
Answer to Persephone_thea's questions.  
IF YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST,
I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are obviously on my list, so let me know with whom I am friends!
NOTE: Some of these questions have been changed from the last poster.


1.Your Middle Name: Janine
2. Age: 25
3. Single or Taken: Taken
4. Favorite Movie: Kill Bill, The Usual Suspects, Ever After (i can't really decide)
5. Favorite Song: Too many to choose from.
6. Favorite Band/Artist: Dido, Portishead, Sarah Slean, Audioslave, Roisen Murphy, Jem ...etc
7. Dirty or Clean: You decide
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings: 2 tattoo's, ears, nose, upper ear cartillage, nipple, belly button



HERE COMES THE...


1. Do we know each other outside of LJ? Yes

2. Whats your philosophy on life?  I hope i don't waste my life philosophizing and forget to just live it.  Seriously deal with the bad but live only for the good.  Perform  your responsibilites but have fun and just live the hell out of life.

3. What is your favorite quote? Work like you don't need the money, Sing like no one is listening, Dance like no one is watching, Love like you've never been hurt.

4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?  Maybe, depends on the nature of it.

5. What is your favorite memory of us? Toss up between the day we tried using curling papers to smoke pot in Cambridge or one of the times we've been out partying together and just being close and having fun.

6. Would you rather fly or breath water? Why? Fly, i think it is the most fabulous of sensations. I love the air and the feeling of being surrounded by just air. I like looking down on the world and seeing how truly small we are even though to us our lives are so big.

7. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you: I can lie on my stomach and leaning back i can cover my eyes with my feet.

8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick? Of course

9. If we were to meet, where would it happen? i am so not answering this question

10. What is one word you would use to describe yourself? caring (as pathetic as it sounds but true)

11. Do you use LJ to escape your life or extend it? Extend, keep up with friends and get stuff of my chest.

12. What is one word you would use to describe me? talented!!! In many ways.

13. Where is one place you want to go above any other? Brazilian Rainforest or Egypt, space would be amazing too.

14. Do you find me attractive? Yes

15. If you could ask me anything, anything at all, what would it be? Will you answer it if i ask?????

16. What do you wear to sleep? undies, sometimes pj's

17. Where do you want to be right now? I should get to bed

18. Would you date me? If yes, where would you take me? I would take you to the mongolian grill.

19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? Go sky diving!! Or Canada's wonderland.

20. Will you repost this so i can fill it out for you?Did you need me too?
 
 
 
Current Location: Home
frame of mind: Sore
sweet whispers of: Ours
 
whisper | in my ear
 
18 September 2006 @ 02:22 am
Update  
Well, i think my guy and i are working things out. I am not sure if it is good for us or bad. He and i usually work well together and play well together. I just need to get a hold of my feelings. He also has some work to do. He seems open to doing it too. I guess this next week will either smooth things over for us or prove our time together is at an end. I don't truly want to lose him. I know that i love him. I just also have to know that if things are not right that it would be healthier for both of us to move on.

Thank you to my good friends that got me through yesterday. I have no idea how i would have survived that day without you. I love you guys!!
 
 
Current Location: Friends
frame of mind: high
sweet whispers of: background noises
 
whisper | in my ear
 
16 September 2006 @ 07:51 pm
Waiting  
Now i am here waiting. Waiting for the inevitable. How long will i sit here waiting though? I could go insane sitting here thinking. I just want it all over with. Closure. Then i can truly mourn for what is gone and get on with what wonders are still out there for me. I can't sit here much longer. I am dreading the words i am soon to here but impatient to get it over with. I hate drawn out endings.

 
 
Current Location: Friends
frame of mind: crappy
 
whisper | in my ear
 
16 September 2006 @ 03:48 pm
Haertache  
Well i think my boy and i are over. He wanted time to be alone and think. I just wish he would say that we are over. I just can't bring myself to do it. Am i weak? I don't know. It is hard to hurt yourself even when you know it is for the best.  I know that no matter what happens i will get over it. I just have to get through the first few days and the rest will be a breaze. Like when you quit smoking. I just need that closure now.

I feel like doing nothing. I want to lie in bed or just sit and think of nothing. Wish i could actually make my brain think nothing. I just can't seem to master my feelings. It is this dark pit that i am spiraling down. It isn't even the bottom that i am scared of, just the thought that i am falling. My friends hands are all out trying to slow me down. They caress me. It helps knowing the are there to catch me but i know it will not stop the emptiness that i will feel for days. But i know i will get through this like i have whenever things have gone wrong. That is how i know i am strong. I might cry but that is my way of healing. I hope no one mistakes my tears as a weakness. 

I don't even feel like sharing all that went wrong. I know that much more of what to look for next time. I have learned and grown, had great experiences as well as bad. I just need to remember to take with me all that is good from it. I will get through this pain. I will conquer and thrive.
 
 
Current Location: friends
frame of mind: blah
sweet whispers of: tool
 
whisper | in my ear
 
11 September 2006 @ 05:10 pm
Live Journal  
I often feel torn between family, close friends, the boyfriend and dance friends as well as the occasional work friends. I Usually just do what i want to do but i end up feeling guilty and stressed. One thing i never wanted to do was spread myself so thin. i want to be there 100% for my friends.

I have put priority on Family, close friends and boyfriend. However that completely leaves me feeling somewhat left out in the dance community i am involved with. This is not a good thing if i want to keep going further with that aspect of my life. I could never imagine giving it up anyways.

I have made some progress though. I learned i can have a good relationship and still tell my boyfriend that i have 'plans with the girls this night' or 'sorry dancing out of town that weekend'. In fact i think my relationship is all the healthier because i can still be my own person and not constantly paired at the hip with him.

Heaven help me stop my constant war with myself.
 
whisper | in my ear
 
14 February 2006 @ 08:49 am
Dido, Here With Me  
I didn't hear you leave, I wonder how am I still here,
I don't want to move a thing, it might change my memory
Oh I am what I am, I'll do what I want, but I can't hide
I won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe, until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide, I cannot be, until you're resting here with me
I don't want to call my friends, they might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed, risk forgetting all that's been
Oh I am what I am, I'll do what I want but I can't hide
I won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide, I cannot be, until you're resting here with me.
 
 
frame of mind: amused
sweet whispers of: Dido - Here With Me
 
whisper | in my ear